Being over confident

Are you the kind of person who plan something and 150% sure that it's gonna happen that way? Just the way you've planned...?

Well, I am.


It's not like I force things to go my way but with a little effort, it does.

My parents are Buddhist. If you are gonna ask me about the religion, I know nothing much. I pray during Chinese New Year and Qingming Festival and, that's it. It is nearly impossible for me to think of God unless I'm really sick or, thinking that I would die soon...

Here's the thing I believe. I think I read it somewhere and I like the idea that we are not in control of our own decisions. From the day we were born until we die, we are meant to walk the destined path. Somehow, you may think we make decisions out of the choices we have and that we design our own path. Not really. It is more like the extra choices are there just for the fun of it. Have you ever make the wrong the decision and think how things could be like if you make the right one? Most of the time, the wrong decision are some sort of experience we need to gain.

I know... it's getting complicated. The thing is that recently I left my very comfortable job and live in uncertainty for 2 months. The job camp was my only plan but nobody able to advise when and where it starts. Nobody actually believe that that is my only plan and nobody knows I didn't get a seat yet. Haha! It is crazy as out of nowhere I have the 150% confidence to resign though I only passed the pre-qualify test and they've yet to screen my qualification.


So, I qualified. I almost laugh my tongue out. During the job camp, my classmates went for interviews. Me? I didn't even bother to view Jobstreet as my plan is to join this ABCD company. Yea... as if they want me so badly. I went for the interview and I think I screwed up; I was attacked by loss memory syndrome whereby I can't provide words to make good sentences and I can't seem to recall much of what I studied during the job camp. I sweat a lot too! Yet, I still have the 150% confidence that they would hire me merely because the interviewer asked for 2 photos when I was told to bring only 1 piece. Ahem... cool observation huh?


So, I'm hired. Really. Is it luck or is it the destined path? I seriously believe things get real when I am over confident. It just go as planned.


Say, would 6572 be the first prize on Toto tomorrow?

Ooo Laa Laa

4 months I left this blog... I thought I would never come back. It's not like I lost my internet connection or, sorry to disappoint you that I didn't die. Haha.

Well, this is some updates so you can sleep better tonight.



I went to Saigon end of July... just about 1 week after I resigned. Hah, take that! Maybe if I'm in the mood, I'll update some photos in my next posting... or maybe I'll come back 4 months later.

August... what I did in August. Ahhh... I was sick coz I got nothing better to do other than sleeping, cooking, feeding myself, shopping, playing with doggies, laundry, downloading stuff, catch up on all the movies I didn't get to watch, I even downloaded Hindi movies!... want some? Also, I passed the 2nd pre-qualify test to join the job camp. No, I passed the 1st test too but I took another one for the next intake.

September... I went to Haadyai before the job camp started which is around mid of the month. Not gonna tell a thing about the camp here. Sorry, I am very selfish, stingy and self-centered. No, not gonna tell a thing. Blekkk!!! Ya Ya... I went camping.

October... hey, that's last month. I'm still in the 27 days training and make new friends! I mean, really new and really good friends. The part I don't like is, I have to go to class on my birthday or else, I have to pay the fine. Don't ask what fine.
I've been spending my birthdays away from the school and office since... since... I was 13? Oops.

Now... November. I am looking for a job of course and I found one... Ooo Laa Laa and I'm not gonna tell you where until I started... maybe.

The Pretenders : Stupid and Bitchy 2

Almost everyone know I resigned and leaving soon. Boss manage to hire 3 people to replace me. How underpaid am I? For these few months, I've been doing 3 people's work with 1 person's salary.
This week, I've been training my new Malay girl, S. She met my expectation of being able to follow the process and procedure at work. Next week, I will have another 2 new girls, 1 Malay and 1 Chinese.

To be honest, I still like my job - easy money. But life goes on...

Mmm... do I sound wrong here about training girls... nothing porno, okie?Now, back to Stupid. I'm so in the mood to share about what Stupid said to my new girl in office yesterday. I can't believe how some people won't grow up. Boy, being able to get hard watching porn doesn't mean you are a grown up - if you wanna know, it actually means you can't control yourself.

I didn't know that S never speak to Stupid before, surprisingly S told me that Stupid asked her a question - When you wanna resign?

Oh Mai Gash... Is this how you treat your new colleague? That's the first question you ask your new colleague? I think that's some signs of male menopause (also called andropause or viropause). Stupid just can't say the right thing, anytime... intentionally or not.

When I told other colleague about Stupid, they don't believe me. To them, I'm just the psycho aggressive at work and knows nothing about socializing. Stupid probably didn't meet my expectation which is why I complain about him and I make up stories to ruin his reputation... uhm what? Reputation? Fine - I say no more.

At times, I hope I have some magical power to wake certain people. Pay attention! Listen to Stupid's laughter... listen how fake he is. I am so ashamed of myself for telling Goat that I like his voice - that was once upon my blind time.

I know Bitchy has real visible attitude problem which is not that scary as we can still talk about his attitude. People like Stupid is the scary type. You will never know his physical and emotional reactions to the hormonal fluctuations throughout the month - he might cry if I threaten to poke his eyes with chopsticks.

O well, after all I just have 8 working days left - I just feel for my girls. My everyday motivation to go to work is WHAT TO EAT FOR LUNCH TODAY... and of course, to meet and chat with some darlings.

Gossip Time : The man who asked me to get a life

This is something written by someone who previously asked me to get a life because of the frequent updates I posted on Facebook about Dettolman. I know it was irritating, but he has a choice of unfriend me, block me, or click HIDE ALL BY me at his homepage... but he chose to keep on reading.

Telling me to get a life when I was living in hell? Yeah... I was trying to get out of it so I can have a life. Thanks to a bunch of good friends - where were you then? Hiding at home, reading someone's Facebook update and keep telling them to get a life?

Why do people write everything about their life on Facebook?
on Monday, May 2, 2011 at 8:23pm

They might :
1. Feel insecure and the need to express themselves all the time.
2. Have no life or nothing else to do, or are bored.
3. Be frustrated and want to get something out.
4. Don't feel comfortable talking to a single person or group of people about it.
(No face to face conversation)
5. Just feel like posting their life.
6. Feel it's a habit of being on Facebook. Addicted to it.

It‘s OK to say “hi” to a friend and stuff like that. But people probably take the "What's on your mind?" thing a little too seriously.
Sometimes, it’s annoying to click someone's page and see a million dumb things they did that day like their some kind of celebrity. They want to post everything about themselves so people look and know more about them, even though in most instances no one really cares.

They just fill up the newsfeed with rubbish no-one cares about or get sympathy by moaning about how bad their life is.

They're just attention-seeking people.

Ooo... wow... maybe now someone will tell me that I don't deserve to stay alive because I have a blogspot and I can elaborate all the million dumb things in details here.

So, who is he to judge? Someone who...
1. Feel secure and doesn't need to express himself all the time.
2. Have life and a lot to do, and never bored - but spend time reading what other people updates on their Facebook.
3. Be satisfied and has nothing to comment.
4. Feel extremely comfortable with face to face conversation to a single person or group of people about it - even though they are strangers.
5. Never feel like posting their life because it is boring and no one would response.
6. Feel it's a bad habit of being on Facebook. Addicted to reading other people's "life".

As I scroll down to the older posts, I found this and it is quite disturbing.

The 8 Personality Types of Men
on Tuesday, March 29, 2011 at 8:51pm

Which category you falls into?
1. The Bad boy (danger) - someone who's dangerous & thrilling to be around.
2. The Adventurer (fun) - someone who's fun & exciting to be around.
3. The Seducer (sex) - someone who is sensual & sexy & makes women feel sexy.
4. The Artist (musician/poet) - someone who moves women emotions.
5. The Successful guy (means) - someone who provides a great lifestyle & stability.
6. Daddy (control) - someone who tells women what to do & controls women.
7. The Regular guy (loyalty) - someone who is down to earth, loyal & stable.
8. Ass Kissing guy (her boy) - someone who gives women whatever she wants.

Someone asked him which category he is in.
He said, All the above, leave out No. 1,6 & 8.

2. The Adventurer (fun) - someone who's fun & exciting to be around.
yeah? so fun he will ask you to get a life.
3. The Seducer (sex) - someone who is sensual & sexy & makes women feel sexy.
burp. and burp again.
4. The Artist (musician/poet) - someone who moves women emotions.
isn't complaining on FB is one of women emotions?
5. The Successful guy (means) - someone who provides a great lifestyle & stability. someone who thinks driving Waja is always the best?
7. The Regular guy (loyalty) - someone who is down to earth, loyal & stable.
good night!

If you are reading this, don't bother to search me in FB. I blocked you... since it is so hard for you to find the button. I think it is better this way so you don't get to read million dumb things that your brain found it hard to process. Meh!

Many people wonder why do people write about their life on Facebook... Seriously, I wonder why these people read about what other people write about their life on Facebook. If you still didn't know, Facebook is a social network. If people who wrote on Facebook does not have a life, do you think people who spend time reading about it... has a life or a better life? Ouch?

How I feel after 3 years?

Bored.

I felt like a mutated zombie driving to work everyday ever since I tender my resignation. I wish I am more like X-Men and not zombie.

Don't you worry. I am Miao, not the pussy who said I AM LEAVING but stay after an offer to increase the salary. It's not that money is not important, it's not that pride is too important... It is because my mind isn't there anymore. I can't concentrate. What is the point of doing something I am no longer interested in every day for 10 hours? Yes, 10 hours. The only excitement left now... I think you don't wanna know. O well,...
1. Eat breakfast
2. Eat lunch
3. Chit chat
4. Poo
5. Looking forward to go home

There you go. Didn't I sound like a VIP? O... I still do my work. It's just that, it's already 3 years... What is there that can't be done? There's always a way if I try harder.

15 working days to go.
Everyday since I tender my resignation, it seems like everyone tried to proof that my decision is right. If I continue to stay, I will forever be doing the same thing and yes, complaining.

I'm not sure if I am indirectly stressed by the fact that I didn't find a job and I totally rely on ONE plan that might not become reality. Well, I rarely put confidence in plans. I've been walking at the mini park everyday after work - I felt I just need it. If it is to slim down, I've never been so extreme before. I frequently get annoyed by the security guard who thinks I should be at home and not walking at the park. Kidnap me if you can move me, I am 57kg! No... it's 56kg... No... 55kg after I poo-ed!

At the park, there are lotsa flashback of the conversation I had on different situations with a few of my colleagues of my attempt to change my function in the team a.k.a. move on!

Situation : I want to do Asset Admin after Crocs Skin resigned.
Someone said this to me. You know lar... you are so aggressive. I don't have to tell you what you would do if you take over Asset. No one in the team would support this idea because they are worried you would know so much and be the team lead. !@#$%^ who wanna be the team lead, shallow-minded people.
The disappointment is not because a colleague said this to me. It is because the whole thing is none of his business and yet he seems to know everything like Google. Yet, all this movement are considered P&C? Is P&C means Private & Chinese?

Situation : I want to do IS Security after someone resigned.
Nothing verbally this time. Action speaks louder than words. They hired someone. And when that someone resigned, they hired a new someone again. Boss asked me to understand and accept the decision because no one can replace me of the function I am holding. Oh Mai Gash!
The disappointment is not because I can't move to another function. It is because I am supposed to remain where I am. Or, is it possibly because a group of Private & Chinese would not support this idea because they are worried I would be the team lead again?


I begin to dislike this job because I begin to lose my identity. I lost my name. What's my name? Thunder? I like that. Miao? I like that too. Kim? That's my last name.


I'm called HELPDESK. F that.